Jump in with the head first. Love, they said?

Jump in with your head first, that is what Jenny does.

I might not have ticked of a “typical bucketlist” of doing skydiving, bungee jumping or making the world’s most amazing or dangerous roadtrips.

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What I have done?

I have fallen in and out of LOVE several times now and got myself up. I have teached myself to see my pattern, I have dared myself to come so fucking close to my own feelings, where it usually can take a lifetime (or forever?) for other people to do for themselves.

I’m 32 today. Yeah I know, I still look like 23. Don’t be jealous. You’ll get there too.

Still believe that people are meant to come into your life a certain time, to make you aware of your personal development and remind you every now and then to stop and reflect.

Do you want to be on this road?

I have made some decisions years ago and it has been a battle of opinions from people around me, when they find out that I don’t want to have kids at all. Starting a family is nothing I wish for in life.

Hey, this is just me putting myself out there.

Want to get to know me more?
You know where to find me. I’m right here – let’s talk.

 

Personal passion.

“Focus on what you’re interested personally. Create personal projects that channel your personal passion. Ship them. A lot and often. And have fun!

I received this in an e-mail from Ji Lee right after my decision of having a life in a suitcase and leave to a country to open up a new chapter.

In two days,

I’ve been back in Sweden for a year.
June 17th 2016, was a grayish Friday when I arrived at the airport of Gothenburg. My emotions was like a final round from a Mortal Combat game. Who will win – The Anxiety of travel depression vs Happiness of making the best out of the situation as it is?

Remember it very clearly. The look on my Dad’s face at the arrivals – He knew. He knew his daughter already had her mind set somewhere else.

What is the next adventure?

A year gone by – just like that! You might have seen my ‘throwbacks’ here and there all over my social media channels. I’m learning to let go of things..

Specially after my trip to Australia and Cabo Verde. Different kind of relationships has changed – all depending on where I am in my life right now.

You friends know I’m a girl who doesn’t find it difficult to write about feelings. I’ve been blogging since almost ten years back and this has always been my thing. To publish personal thoughts online. It brings me and you followers a bit closer to my heart.

I left the rat race in a big company and heading towards to a more challenging one, a startup and to give my entrepreneurial spirit a place to grow.

This week I created a new adventure, an adventure that doesn’t necessarily involves a trip to the other side of the world. An opportunity that came to me. Joined a tech startup with a bunch of creatives. Happy to see where our path takes us!

My plan has been to network as much as I can after me leaving a contract in March. To continue to show my network and the city I’m living in, of who I am and what kind of personal passion that will trigger me to go forward.

This has not been easy.

Remember when I have mentioned before about things not always are fun fun and all that “fancysmancy” posts?

Important thing to mention. Not everyone within the category of ‘loved ones’ who have been giving me the support I need and wish to have. I’ve been questioned if I have any clue of what I’m doing, keep reminding me of my insecurities instead of seeing through the person I’ve become so far. Don’t give time to listen to what I have to say. Lot of tears and an emotional ride is the result. Unanswered questions have been flying through this little head of mine.

I’ve come to this conclusion – If you can’t be happy for me, then don’t be.

I will be OK.

Other than that. Being thankful for all the cheerful messages, phone calls and work experiences I’ve received from friends all over the world these past weeks.

You know who you are – Keep being you!

Here I am

I’ve sorta, kind of promise you friends back home in Sweden that I will blog about my trip. I have been here over a month and to be honest I’ve thought that I will have time to sit down and write about my impressions of Aussie. 

I haven’t been able to find peace to collect my thoughts.. until now.

The first two weeks were overwhelming. Good with the bad of course. Met friends I haven’t seen for ages, learning the left hand traffic and to be brave enough to visit the city and other places outside by myself. It might seems quite easy for some of you, but for me the first week was terrifying. To step outside my comfort zone and dare myself to get lost. Which I did! Haha. The trams stop here doesn’t make any sense to me (still doesn’t). I have 2015 to thank for with all the apps for my phone and the extra batterykit comes perfectly in hand. I can’t imagine how this blogpost would have turned out if this trip were made.. 10 years ago?

What have I been up to these weeks?

  • Trying to get use to the left hand traffic.
    I have a confession. I am use to it now but that doesn’t mean I like it, ok?
  • Met my friends that I haven’t seen since five years ago
    Not everyone yet but hey, we still have time!
  • Road trip through Great Ocean Road
    The 12 Apostles. Stunning. Indescribable!
  • Celtic wedding and camping for two nights in Warrnambool
    Never have I put on a fancy dress and makeup in a cold tent before. As they say, there is a first time for everything
  • Have my own room just outside the city 
    With my lovely housemates/friends Jack and Kirsten
  • Met new girlfriends
    All the way from Sweden. Fika? Oh yes!
  • Speak english on a daily basis
    Using my third language as my main language so bare with me
  • Dating aussies
    Message to swedish boys back home: I’m sorry. You have a lot to learn!
  • Experienced homesickness for the first time in a month
    I don’t want to go home but it’s the fucking timezone I need to get use to.. 10 hours!
  • Learning new aussie words “heaps, reckon, no worries, breakky”
    And yes, I am falling in love with the accent more and more for each day..
  • Hanging out a lot with my dear friend Emmelie
    #30going22 in Melbourne!
  • Been on 3 jobinterviews
    No such luck but I will keep on swimming! Yes guys, a finding Nemo reference. To add, I am not going to follow other (read: swedes) peoples footsteps therefore a different challenge for me
  • Celebrated my 30th birthday
    I am actually 22 so don’t ever forget that and I couldn’t ask for a better one. 

Yup. This sums up my month pretty well.
I would love to hear from you friends back home, so leave a comment or a message. 

Warrnambool

Down under

So…

Now I am finally here and it’s been a first great week. Where should I start?

What should I write about? It’s been overwhelming these past few days. Not just fighting the jetlag (felt like I’ve been partying two days in a row without any sleep whatsoever) but also the traffic on the lefthand side, the charming australian accent and me speaking english all day long to my friends. 

I have published a lot of photos on Facebook (over one hundred for just one week! For you family and friends that are not on this social platform, you are all missing out the good ones). Ha, I’ll try to upload a few of them here within shortly. 

 

 

Travel fever

Anxious, nervous, happy, sad, frustrated. All emotions at once when you have a hell lot of travel fever. Now it’s just days ahead! Leaving on Thursday (from Gothenburg) and to not be in a country where I am used to everything, is a bit frightening. I do experience calmness though through all of these and I strongly think that it has to do with the decision being made a while ago.

Two more weeks

Today in two weeks I’ll be leaving Sweden for Australia. It’s quite amazing how time flies by and I remember when I first told my family and friends about this trip. 
Time is something I have realized how precious it is. Sounds like a cliché but I haven’t reflect over time as much before as I have done during this summer. Decide who I am spending it with and so forth. Do things I want to do and not something someone else expects me to do. More of that as a lesson!

I feel much more calm now since all the administrative and some other work is.. done!

Ticket to Aus 
Work and Holiday visa 
Travelinsurance 
Workplace before summer 
Paper for Union 
Place to stay the first days ⍻

 

 

Exactly one month

One month huh?

I so remember the day I told my closest girlfriends that I will make a huge change. This was back in April. April, May, June, July and now we have reached August. To  see their surprise faces, hearing their laughs and the most important when they looked at me and say – You are doing the right thing for you now. Let’s focus on yourself!

This is a scentence which is going to follow me during my journey. Bet your ass I will! One month to go (yesterday to be exactly, Sep 17th I will be on a jetplane.. well, a plane. You know the drill) before I leave Sweden for a new adventure.